you magnificent fuck up
11 September 2009 @ 01:09 am
[narrative] ambition took me speed of light to god's exclusion zone  
The trip to England - and then onto France - was a good idea, Martel knows. Having spent the past year devoting himself to establishment, he's missed all the things about traveling that gave him the wanderlust he had as a younger man in the first place. It's good to get away from 48 hour work days for a while, to be a little out of reach, to be so good as to wear the clothes that Candice likes so damn much every day for a while as they travel together for the first time.

Selfishness aside, there's practicality to it as well; if he's supposed to be passed off as some 'Professor Lefevre', an English and French mix, then he probably ought to know something about the countries allegedly responsible for him. It's not tourism so much as learning by immersion, and after leaving Savannah shortly after Candice's parents did (they liked him, and he'd feel worse about having fallen back on old methods of manipulation if it hadn't worked so well - perhaps he could've won them over without that, they'll never know) it's what most of the past month has been devoted to.

This world is so exhausting and he's tired of it. The languages he picks up easily enough, but everything else - the culture, the tools, nothing is familiar. He wears the clothes well, but never quite cares for them; he is driven to distraction by this modern insistence on disarming. (Until he figures out how to hide knives from metal detectors and the like by means of glamour; an imperfect solution, but sufficient.) It's fascinating and he is fascinated, but he feels out of place and out of sorts.

He's thinking about taking photographs of Valdis when he first sees Amiens and forgets to think entirely.

Amiens is a thirteenth century high gothic cathedral, and for a moment Martel is somewhere else entirely so clearly that it hurts. He takes his sunglasses off (stupid things) and follows Candice up the steps to go inside, quiet just this once. When he slips away from her exploring to claim a seat in a back pew, he prays to a god who won't be listening in a world he knows is too far away to be heard.

He dislikes France a little less and a little more, all at once.
 
 
 
 
 
you magnificent fuck up
18 April 2009 @ 02:06 am
[prompt] when his memory is persistent, one belated curiosity stops him before the mirror.  
 
 
 
you magnificent fuck up
15 December 2008 @ 03:31 am
[prompt] i'm the tiger's empty cage, i'm the mystery's final page  

"Nothing?" he demands of Ewar, without preamble, taking the stairs at a speed that forces even the well-trained Arum to hurry in keeping up with him.

"Not a trace, my Lord. Do you-"

Martel quells his rising annoyance the best he can - which is, as it turns out, fairly effectively well. At least as far as outward appearance goes. "I'm going to see for myself. Inform my wife, and try not to start with me in the process."

Ewar, who radiates perfect innocence and certainly absolutely no tendencies towards 'starting' anything with Martel, regards his lord evenly. "Just as you say, sir. Should I tell her when to expect you back?"

Martel hears the prompt in it and sighs internally. "No. But I can hardly imagine it'll take me such a terribly long time to find all of nothing. Do excuse me." He pretends not to notice the look he's getting, here, and if Ewar sighs or rolls his eyes, he at least does it out of Martel's earshot and sight.

Of course, he isn't concerned. He's annoyed that someone he's paid for a job has up and vanished in the midst of it, leaving no apparent trace - he hasn't seen Severus here in what's rapidly becoming weeks, and none of the usual methods of communication are doing him any good. Or anyone else. It won't take him long to find nothing at all - Severus's own home is too well-warded for Martel to do anything truly effective but sort of glare at it from a distance, even if he goes there - but he does so dislike idleness. He dislikes it even more when people he ought to be able to find aren't where he ought to be able to find them.

He catches his cloak as Ewar tosses it to him before he leaves, swearing silently about the bloody unreliable bloody nexus and its fucking denizens.

prompt: five minutes in the life [260]
word count: 320

 
 
Current Music: i'm the slave you'll never free, i'm the truth you'll never know
 
 
you magnificent fuck up
07 September 2008 @ 03:41 am
[prompt] i'll buy you roses pale red  

The as-yet-unnamed castle, when Martel first arrives there with his scars and his exhaustion and his inability to lay down, doesn't strictly speaking have a chapel. It doesn't strictly speaking have much of anything, in fact, being only more years of abandonment away from being a ruin. The chapel, though, is more of a specific lack; the former inhabitants weren't faithful people of any particular religion and their home (now his home) reflects that.

He ignores it, for a time.

The bedchambers that'll be in use are a higher priority. Candice's suite, and the rooms set aside for Maria and her child. Guest suites for the possibility of Sephrenia (and by extension his own erstwhile brother) visiting. The kitchens, baths. Work and training rooms. A study. The library needs cleaning, repairing, restocking. He has yet to touch the outbuildings and a stable will have to be built almost from scratch before he can think of horses. Receiving rooms, anterooms. His great hall. There's so much to be done and that's only considering what he needs to be in use now, never mind the sheer enormity of the task if he sets about renovating the entire castle.

It keeps him busy; keeps him from thinking about the ache in his chest under the scar that he shouldn't have, shouldn't have risen from, the absurdity of second chances when he'd systematically and deliberately destroyed any he could've had in life.

In a moment, quiet and deciding whether or not he'd meant what came underneath his words, he remembers the chapel that isn't.

He chooses one of the smaller halls, the following week, drafts a plan with Ewar for what it is he'll need. (Dweia? Ewar asks, and he shakes his head, puzzled.) He puts himself in contact with the smith who'd crafted his armor, sketches out a brief explanation of what he wants.

For the time being, he fills it full of candles and fresh flowers, and regretfully cuts pork out of his diet.



[prompt: 'write about something you cleaned up'.
word count: 327
fandom: the elenium
yes i am applying to theatrical_muse finally, eat it.]

 
 
you magnificent fuck up
07 August 2008 @ 12:34 pm
[log] this isn't home but somehow it's gold  

It's been a strange day among strange days, which Martel assumes is probably why his home is filling up with people in the space of a week or so. He's fairly sure (although he wouldn't swear to it) that he hasn't even met Brody (this is only because he didn't exactly get a lot of names off the bus while he was being kidnapped as a felonious monk), for example. Preoccupied doesn't mean he's a terrible host, though, so he's making the brief trip down the hall to Maria's suite (oh god what's she done to it).

He raps on the door with the back of his knuckles, waiting for a response.

 
 
you magnificent fuck up
06 August 2008 @ 07:10 pm
[log] sometimes they're crawling down my spine  

[18:33] * Maria is here in a bar, perhaps looking for Martel.
[18:34] * Martel is here, now; god only knows what he's /been/ doing. "Hello, there."
[18:36] Maria: "Hi! Can I have a sleepover?" ........let's just get that out of the way. "What are you up to?" Meanwhile, she ambles around the bar, poking at stuff. Including the answering machine, because no one else uses the thing.
[18:37] Martel: "Define 'sleepover' before I answer that."
[18:38] Maria: "Brody wants a vacation, and if he comes over I'll have someone to entertain me." She scrolls through the text messages, and then pauses.
[18:40] * Martel tries to recall if he's met Brody. "Very well. What are you looking at?"
[18:40] Maria: "Um. Be calm, first. So this chick Candice is your girl, right?"
[18:40] * Martel has the look on his face of a man who's pretty sure he knows what's coming. "That's one way of putting it."
[18:41] Maria: "It looks like she's in the hospital with her friend Enfys...I guess someone tried slitting her throat or something? I don't know, the message is off-world, some of it's garbled."
[18:42] Martel: "Does it say /where/?"
[18:46] Maria: "Um, it has pinpoint coordinates attached! Bolivar medical."
[18:50] * Martel looks /extremely/ calm, which may or may not actually bode well. "All right. Your friend can come and stay, and I'll see you as soon as possible, I have to go. Now."

[prelude to this.]

 
 
you magnificent fuck up
07 July 2008 @ 09:28 am
[log] and i got no excuse and is that all right  

Martel's morning typically begins before the sun rises; his days are busy lately and it suits him well enough, suits him even more to accomplish as much a day as he can possibly manage.

Not that he's ever had a tendency to push himself.

Still. Today is a little different; Candice had no interest in getting up quite that early and after lighting the fire, he'd seen the sense in it and gone back to bed a while. Breakfast was followed by the parting of ways, and Martel spent most of the morning primarily overseeing the work of the Arum men. The fact he supplies the end-of-day booze is, he's noticed, raising his popularity there astronomically. 

In the afternoon, sleeves rolled up and boots on, he's back in the nexus a while--in search of someone, actually. 

Three guesses who.

 
 
you magnificent fuck up
23 June 2008 @ 05:44 pm
[narrative] such a difference between who i am and who you see  
Martel has work to do--which beyond honing skills left long untouched, he hasn't been able to say in all seriousness for some time. It's been chafing, this lack of purpose, and he's quietly pleased with himself for finding one. A direction of his own, simple as it is. Maria will reacquire his money from where he'd left it in Eosia, he'll buy the place and then he'll at least be occupied until the renovations and...a few minor fortifications are complete.

Stables, too, he thinks as he marks down his to-do list (of course he has a list); he can talk to Candice about that horse when their trip is set. He'll have somewhere to keep the things he's acquiring.

For now, he's seeing about directions, details...he's going to have to guess at her dress size, more than likely, but given previous plans he would've had to regardless. It occurs to him it might not be a terrible idea to mention her excursion to his far-less-wayward brother should he have the opportunity, though if she sets foot in Elenia it won't be from his directions...but the thought of seeking Sparhawk out again...mn. If such an opportunity arises...well, it'd be foolish to keep secrets for the sake of keeping secrets. Particularly the kind of secrets that could be, conceivably, misinterpreted.

(As though he's never done it anyway.)

All the same, his mood is better than he lets on.